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- I had a some serious
psychological baggage

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that I hadn't really worked through

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from my time in the service.

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I was treated for addiction to alcohol,

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opiates, and post
traumatic stress disorder.

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Kinda the whole shell
we wear about how we're,

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you know because of the
line of work we're in

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we have to be very
committed to the mission.

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And if you're not part of the solution

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then you're part of the problem.

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But the truth is there are
gonna be times in your life

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when circumstances conspire
to create a situation

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where you're not gonna be
firing on all cylinders.

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I think it is difficult
to try to translate

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other people's personal experiences

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with suicidal ideation but
I can speak for myself.

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I was very selfish.

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Suicide is selfish

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but you are sick when you feel that way.

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You are actually ill.

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And I was ill.

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I didn't really have a lot
of ability to see outside

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of my own little kinda tunnel

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of feeling sorry for myself

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and depression and it's debilitating.

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I would like to, my best advice would be,

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before you get to that point you know,

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try to get some help.

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If you get to that point,
you know, call somebody.

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It doesn't have to be a professional.

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Just call someone and say,
man, I'm really struggling

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I don't know what to do.

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And that's okay.

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You might be the person
that's having a struggle today

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but a couple weeks you might
be the person reaching out

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to somebody who's struggling.

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And you know we're all in this together.

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Suicide is a permanent
solution to temporary problems.

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Everything changes.

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It's important to understand that.

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It's difficult to see that
when you get depressed.

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When you are struggling but
you can never let that go.

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There is no prescription for hope.

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There are no pills that give you hope.

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There are people in your
life who will give you hope.

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And that's what happened with me.

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People injected themselves into my life

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in spite of the fact that
I didn't want them there.

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I was able to get through it fortunately.

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You know I now have stuff to offer so.

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I think remember that the
feelings that you have.

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Feelings are very temporary.

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The decision to end
your life is permanent.

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Try not to let go of that.

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